i'm so sick of being damn confused!

okay...
so there is this dude that i am talking to right now...and because i never really though of him in that manner it kinda seems that it just happened and i'm going with the flow of it...
and i'm thinking that this is fun...enough anyway...
and then there is this other dude that implies that he wants to talk to me...but i'm pretty sure that he just wants to fuck which is one thing...but to pose as though you want more or to try and make me make the first move is really pissing me off...to the point where i'm not really even interested in the situation at all...not that i ever really was interested in the situation cause i just don't be on that relationship/situation shit anymore...

why am i not?
well because i spent 2003-2007 going back and forth between these two dudes with a few others spinkled in for variety of course...and i have decided that until i have exaclty what i want standing in front of me i am not dealing with any more situations...instead i will have fun with those that i choose and keep the movement going forward...

well this is wouldnt pose a problem except that i think that one dude does really want a relationship with me and i am not sure that i am interested in going in that direction...i mean i like him and all...but i don't know...and i'm confused because i am not sure whether or not i should continue doing things with him...or if i should let the jets cool and keep mahself wide open...

i mean i don't know...

i really had no intentions of being romantically involved with anyone until next year since right now mah main focus is supposed to be ridding mahself of the african villagers living on mah hips...and i am doing well with thati will add in case anyone cared....

well for fear of either of them reading this as this is an open blog that is posted on both crackspace and bookface ah will end this here...that and the fact that ah am officially off break five minutes before ah even started writing this....hmmm...yeah trifling ah know....

feel free to leave a comment with a suggestion or not...or just ignore this as though it never happened....either way ah'm sure that the confusion will lie inside until ah get to the point where ah stop responding to everything and everyone...that or the fact that ah may decide to actually make it a go with dude #1....either way...you'll be the first to know....whoever you are strange people stumbling upon mah private thoughts....lol!

oh and if you are reading this and feel that you are dude 1 or 2.....i didn't post names dates or pictures...consider yaself lucky...ah've grown up...some anyway....