I live in a world of metaphors...
similes line my street...
I sleep w/prose each night as I dream of days w/poetry...
I fell in love w/alliteration walking along the shores...
Writing words is what keeps me sane...
I'll never cheat on my journal,
...except maybe w/a blog...
there are days I dream in diction...
wondering if I can turn the words off...

matters of the heart...are never simple....

How much easier this good bye would be if only I could manage to hate you

Despise you

Stop wondering if instead I do actually love you

I wish that my feelings for you were flimsy plastic palleable into something...nothing...

That's what I wish I wish I felt nothing for you then I could walk away without a second thought

I could say no to your calls & ignore your texts...

Because I'm somewhere halfway between love & like I'm not able to walk away...instead I'm standing in this door way, one foot in one out, and I'm not sure which way I should go...

If I move ahead and walk away what am I leaving behind, but if I stay after you've hurt me so deeply what am I saying to you? Hurt me as much as you'd like because my love for you outweighs my common sense?

How much easier it would be if you simply made me hate you despise you...then I'd know which way to go...but because I'm somehwere between like & love I'm standing here missing you and I've not even walked away....

falling in like is the halfway point to love...




And just for today I wanna like you


real hard


real slow


real smooth


I really just wanna like


On



You....

I had something in my spirit...I'm gonna just let it loose....

I am the stable one in my friendships....I am the one that everyone seeks to talk to about their problems...not because I am a social worker or that I am particularly well versed in this journey called life. But because I listen objectively and answer with the most honesty that I can muster.
Some days I find myself holding my tongue because I know that the person isn't really capable of receiving the complete honesty that I have to offer and I don't do well with bullshitting people so instead I remain silent.
This was a fairly easy thing til I lost my mind earlier this year...yep I have gone stone cold insane...I don't know how else to describe it...I lost it...I have been the listening center for far too many people and now I am slowly receding from that role...
I don't have the energy to be listen to everything that is going on in your life, especially when you have the tools to change things...I am no longer capable of sitting around and listening to the bull shit, doing the bull shit review or anything else. If you are an adult and can't make basic decisions to make yourself happier, what the hell will my listening to you complain do? Especially when you know the source of your discomfort? Nope I will not be that emotional dumping ground.
So if you notice that I'm not as available or not answering your calls...or texts...or instant messages...its not personal. I am just reserving the right to my own sanity. I deserve to dwell in my own kind of peace. Nothing against you, but your lack of emotional or mental progress has been impeding my own and well...honestly I can't deal any longer....

Two Fingers and an Honest Salute...

I'm a vapor....

Good Mawning My Loves.....

Good Mawning my loves...hoping these words reaching you all ever so well....
Its been a while...I'm sure there's a few cobwebs in the corner....but I'm here...
Just wanted to take some time to shine some beauty in y'all lives.
Spread a smile a wide hello....
Its spring in Chicago...
Its time that I shake my hips...twirl around & stare the sun in its eyes & say hello my love...

I've shaken loose my skin and I'm feeling mighty fly...
Hopefully you all are feeling the same....

Good Mawning my loves...I'm still yawning a bit, but I'm ready to start a new day....