My mama ALWAYS told me that "you can't never let hoes see you slipping"...
Yeah this was before she was the super deaconess so don't be looking at my mama crazy...
But. Anyway. At the tender (or ripe) age of 30 I've finally really come to understand what she means. I have realized what she meant with that little piece of wisdom...
I'm a really beautiful girl... I realize that. I've never underestimated that... I hear about my physical beauty on a semi-regular basis...
And I'm sure because I have a general understanding of the fact I'm not unattractive I don't always feel like I have to put in a lot(or any) effort.
But lately since I've been losing weight I've started taking more notice in my appearance. I've been putting slightly more effort in making myself look presentable. As a result of this bit of effort I've see the way people look at me. People who like or dislike me are looking at me... I've been getting my side eyes & full frontal visual assaults.
And I must say... I am ecstatic that I have finally started paying more attention & giving more of a damn about how I look... The reactions are always such that make me want to pop my collar & pop out my chest.
Especially the looks of utter disappointment when the folks who don't like me... The sheer disappointment that I've finally decided to take more effort & look awesome when before I never would...
Smile bitches...
She's here.... And she ain't going nowhere....
