Now that that's done....

Wheeeewwwwww!!!!!!

I didn't think I was going to make it through that one yall!!!

2009 was a dirty b*tch to the kid!!

Buuuuuuuuuuutttttttt............

I ran her and made it!!!!!

It's amazing when you think about what can break you...and what keeps you going...there were many years before and I said..."ooh that was a tough one...ohhh that was hard..." but then nothing was like this past year...

Never ever ever thought I would have to walk alongside my mama as she fought cancer. That one...I definitely didn't know where to turn during that time..But I learned who supported me, and who was only down on the surface...and no judgments, you just ain't my friend. No need to be mad to be bitter....just am...

That's the next thing. I said good bye to a lot of failed friendships last year. Nothing wrong with outgrowing people...hell we shed and get new skin darn near daily...it's just hard when neither wants to admit that we're no longer bringing out the best in the person...and we no longer like the person that we are seeing...that's when its difficult...but necessary to deuce them and move along...

By that same token though...I have rekindled some AWESOME associations from High school...Whoa!!! Like there are some people that I find it necessary to communicate with on a semi-daily basis...like where have you been for the past 10 years? And how did I miss out on the greatness that is our friendship? I LOVE you man!!!!

I made some hard decisions regarding myself and relationships...I finally stood my ground and didn't allow myself to become an unwilling partner in something that I saw had no future for me...I didn't just go with the flow and then look back three years later like huh?
At the same time I discovered that I am more than willing to be in an open honest relationship...something that meaningful and rewarding...I realized that it is okay for me to be open to the relationship without seeming needy or desperate.
I also learned that in order to get into that relationship I must open myself and align myself with like minded people...growth....


So last year was one that included a lot of growing...I'm not done...
And hopefully next year we'll get to see further progression and growth...and lots of fun while doing it!