Wanting that old thing...feeling...back...

If you follow me on twitter you've already seen the beginning of this blog...and if you don't, you may wanna hit the time line to get the other parts of this cause I ain't starting over from the top....

So

In my reflecting & reminiscing, I've been thinking about the security of having a dude & how it feels to know that you have a dude more than the actual having of the dude.

Confusing?

Yeah. So is my life, brain, existence, dwelling & patterns. Read me more often & you'll become accustomed. Or you'll stop reading & never have to worry about it again. Either way this is all I got to offer.

Me.

Flaws

Confusion

Brattiness

Snarkiness

Cattiness

Selfishness

Me...

So anyway...
I think the things I miss the most about having a boyfriend/boo is being held by them while sleeping. None of the big stuff of having someone to date(nice) sex(awesome) a companion(wonderful).
But what I truly miss the most is having someone to sleep beside & put my head in the nape of their neck(one of the advantages of being 5'1 is there are very few dudes that aren't tall enough for you to somehow fit your head in the nape of their neck, while it may be difficult when rocking weaves & wigs as big as I like to wear, I somehow still manage to get into that itty bitty slice of space).

I've always been affectionate. I love hugging my friends. My good friends know that when I'm cold sleepy sad hungry bored or whatever I'll get all in their space & snuggle up to them regardless of the time & place. Or the sex of the buddy. If I need a snuggle I'm getting it. And having a constant companion ensures that I don't have to steal snuggles from my indulgent friends, I can have that from him.....

This has of course done nothing to reduce my not really longing, but desire, maybe that's the word, for a companion. But I don't know. I may come out this funk in a few days & figure that snuggling w/my homies is enough & I don't need a him to snuggle with or lay on...but somehow I doubt it.

I mean I'm perfectly okay w/sleeping alone 26 days out of 30. But something about Day 27 has me all up in my feelings and all the body pillows in the world can't put their arms around my lower waist pull me in close position my head under their chin & ask me if I have enough room.....

peace...blessings....overstanding...knowledge.....freedom....