We always have a great time, and now that we no longer live together my momma sees these visits as her chance to find out everything in my life... And of course yesterday was no different...while riding to the grocery store my mom asks me about my "love life". I chuckled ruefully & wondered...so how does one answer this one? And then I told her the truth...there wasn't much of a love life to describe...for the past 2-3 yrs every guy I have dated or attempted to date has had an inability to adjust to my schedule & my complete lack of availability at some points....the one dude I was dating that could understand my life, seeing as his was just as tumultuous & complicated, had a serious of unfortunate events that led to him & I no longer being a "him & I".
I've learned that I need to be truthful w/guys that are interested in dating me, cause to have a dude try to take you out & for 6-10 consecutive days you have to remind him you work full time, attend school-full time, have two free lance operations-both of which equal a full time job....tends to make guys think you're not so interested in them.
I ran down my schedule to a dude the second time I was able to talk to him after meeting, he asked me at that point, "so why did you even give me your number, there's no way in hell I can squeeze into that schedule". What could I say? I bend & adjust for guys that are worth the trouble, but 2nd conversation in? I know nothing about you & whether or not you're worthy of my canceling appointments or doing homework at work so we can go out directly following work...
I've tried to better juggle my schedule...even reducing one load or another...but no matter what something or someone gets slighted & I feel like complete shit for doing it....
All of this went through my head when my mama asked me, "So Trice, what about YOUR love life, what's going on w/you?"
I simply nodded & said to her "w/my life right now, not very much..."
She wrinkled her forehead, and said, "but you're out of class & off work everyday but 9...why can't you just adjust some things...."
I could only nod & say "I know mommy....maybe one day though..."
And for now that's all I can say...maybe one day...but for now...my blackberry is the only "dude" I'm sleeping with these days....
Le Sigh....taking over the world is awesome...I won't complain...cause not many others can live my life & there are those that would happily trade me for it....
Dah well....
Toodles Smooches & Sixty Seven Grande Americanos loom before me...and I'm supposed to be working...not writing....until the other side of the moon....
peace...blessings....overstanding...knowledge.....freedom....
With that kind of schedule, I wouldn't even think about dating or handing my phone number out. Sheesh. But your busy life it should all be worth it in the end, right?
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