I had something in my spirit...I'm gonna just let it loose....

I am the stable one in my friendships....I am the one that everyone seeks to talk to about their problems...not because I am a social worker or that I am particularly well versed in this journey called life. But because I listen objectively and answer with the most honesty that I can muster.
Some days I find myself holding my tongue because I know that the person isn't really capable of receiving the complete honesty that I have to offer and I don't do well with bullshitting people so instead I remain silent.
This was a fairly easy thing til I lost my mind earlier this year...yep I have gone stone cold insane...I don't know how else to describe it...I lost it...I have been the listening center for far too many people and now I am slowly receding from that role...
I don't have the energy to be listen to everything that is going on in your life, especially when you have the tools to change things...I am no longer capable of sitting around and listening to the bull shit, doing the bull shit review or anything else. If you are an adult and can't make basic decisions to make yourself happier, what the hell will my listening to you complain do? Especially when you know the source of your discomfort? Nope I will not be that emotional dumping ground.
So if you notice that I'm not as available or not answering your calls...or texts...or instant messages...its not personal. I am just reserving the right to my own sanity. I deserve to dwell in my own kind of peace. Nothing against you, but your lack of emotional or mental progress has been impeding my own and well...honestly I can't deal any longer....

Two Fingers and an Honest Salute...

I'm a vapor....