Wanting that old thing...feeling...back...

If you follow me on twitter you've already seen the beginning of this blog...and if you don't, you may wanna hit the time line to get the other parts of this cause I ain't starting over from the top....

So

In my reflecting & reminiscing, I've been thinking about the security of having a dude & how it feels to know that you have a dude more than the actual having of the dude.

Confusing?

Yeah. So is my life, brain, existence, dwelling & patterns. Read me more often & you'll become accustomed. Or you'll stop reading & never have to worry about it again. Either way this is all I got to offer.

Me.

Flaws

Confusion

Brattiness

Snarkiness

Cattiness

Selfishness

Me...

So anyway...
I think the things I miss the most about having a boyfriend/boo is being held by them while sleeping. None of the big stuff of having someone to date(nice) sex(awesome) a companion(wonderful).
But what I truly miss the most is having someone to sleep beside & put my head in the nape of their neck(one of the advantages of being 5'1 is there are very few dudes that aren't tall enough for you to somehow fit your head in the nape of their neck, while it may be difficult when rocking weaves & wigs as big as I like to wear, I somehow still manage to get into that itty bitty slice of space).

I've always been affectionate. I love hugging my friends. My good friends know that when I'm cold sleepy sad hungry bored or whatever I'll get all in their space & snuggle up to them regardless of the time & place. Or the sex of the buddy. If I need a snuggle I'm getting it. And having a constant companion ensures that I don't have to steal snuggles from my indulgent friends, I can have that from him.....

This has of course done nothing to reduce my not really longing, but desire, maybe that's the word, for a companion. But I don't know. I may come out this funk in a few days & figure that snuggling w/my homies is enough & I don't need a him to snuggle with or lay on...but somehow I doubt it.

I mean I'm perfectly okay w/sleeping alone 26 days out of 30. But something about Day 27 has me all up in my feelings and all the body pillows in the world can't put their arms around my lower waist pull me in close position my head under their chin & ask me if I have enough room.....

peace...blessings....overstanding...knowledge.....freedom....

Gat Damn Girl!

Ladies!
I know we loves our men....we loves them...dirty drawls & all we still loves our men... Don't matter if everything that comes out that man's mouth is cash money bull shit...we loves our men....and since we know how many sisters don't have a good man we find ourselves feeling the need to "protect" our sure thing from all these vultures out here trying to cast a spell on our sweet thang....


Yeah right

I mean come on....that's bull shit
If he's yours...then he's yours....you aint got to climb your insecure ass in his lap every time he's having a fucking conversation w/another chick! I mean really?!? You gonna all but straddle this man in public cause he's having a conversation?!? But isn't he FUCKING YOU?!? Grow up sis. He's not that attractive to everyone....and even if he was....have a bit more confidence in what y'all have....you don't have to slither across the room & stand guard because HE not SHE said something to one of the females in the room. And if you're that insecure, maybe you should tell him he isn't allowed to have conversations w/other women...

But. If you do that you may run the risk of him realizing how insecure you are and also the possibility that he's not that into you....and that well neither of those options are quite pleasing or appealing....

Something has to give though...when people are in public places doing normal benign tasks & you creep up wiggle your way into the conversation or even worse his lap folks are either going to conclude this is the 1st time a man has showed you attention or you have issues with your esteem....either option sucks for you...

So in the future stand down sis, I'm sure he got plenty left for you...I mean you ARE the one he's going home with.....right?
peace...blessings....overstanding...knowledge.....freedom....